I’ve decided to do a 40 day gratitude journal. I normally keep one on paper but to keep me accountable I’ll do this online. I’m realizing now that the pandemic may be coming to an end that there may be I time when I crave this pace of life again. The abundance of time seemed daunting to begin with, nearly a year ago, but it has allowed me to create things I’ve always saved for “someday”. This precious, gentle time spent in our homes has recalibrated us and brought us closer to the things that are important to us. I certainly miss human beings, even though I consider myself an introvert, I have come to appreciate collaboration and unexpected moments that can only be created though interacting with people. I miss eye contact. Oh wait, I got sidetracked… I’m focusing on the positives in quarantine. So I’ll do one a day for 40 days.
Today I’m grateful for CREATIVITY. What would the world be without brilliant minds throughout history CREATING and innovating. Whether it’s technology or art or a beautiful garden or Disneyland. I’m so grateful that I get to experience other people’s ideas that they had the courage to create. The world and universe are the most unimaginably beautiful creations, (humans and animals are a close second.) Welp, I’ve got a game of Super Mario bros to get back to. Here are a couple of videos that I love on creativity..
I am grateful for laughter. The kind that makes your belly ache and your eyes drip tears down your cheeks. So much laughter you can’t contain it. I love funny people and inside jokes and well written comedy and every effort to make life lighter and sillier (I’m not sure if that’s a word but I also don’t care. I love people who don’t take themselves too seriously and happy thoughts that make you giggle in a crowded room. I love the moment someone understands your sense of humor and that knowing look between two people sharing a smile. Laughter is the best. Can you remember the first time you had a group of people laugh out loud, and how communal that spontaneous burst of joy felt? Think how odd and funny life can be. Anyhow. I hope you laugh today and I hope you pay attention to how nice it is.
I am grateful for rainy days, both literally and figuratively. I am learning that it can’t be sunny all the time and that’s ok ya know. There is a passage from the Prophet by Khalil Gibran that says,
“For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself
He threshes you to make your naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.”
I am learning the truth of this. I used to think that trials or difficulties were something to just be endured and the quicker you can get through it the better and back to your life plan. But what I have realized is that sometimes the trials or difficulties actually unlock new paths in our heart and mind, they certainly help us to become stronger and kinder and more compassionate. Like a lot of us during the pandemic, I have taken up gardening and an essential part of the growth comes from pruning. I know, it sounds counterintuitive right? When my mint or basil plant gets to a certain height I have to cut it back or prune it. Each stem I cut then turns into two stems and then after a time, when I cut those two stems, they turn into four and so on. It is exponential growth. It’s the pruning which makes the plants grow stronger and more prolific. We are like complex emotional plants that sometimes require pruning to level up to what we could be.
I am grateful for animals. Horses are the shiz. Can you believe that they just let us saddle them up and run with us on their back? Me neither! They are so sleek in form and design. When I look at horses I KNOW that they were made by an intelligent creator. There is just no way they are an accident. They also have an emotional intelligence. When you look in a horses eyes and it sniffs your hand, it’s ears moving side to side as it makes it’s assessment of you. You know you better come with the right energy when you ride a horse. There is no fooling a horse. You can’t pretend to be nice or in a good mood, it will call you on that and pull away or push or kick back. But when you come with a pure heart, good vibes and you are absolutely present, you can connect with that thousand pound glorious creature in a way that I can only describe as Heavenly collaboration. There is no better feeling on earth that the wind in your hair as you ride at full speed. The feelings of absolute trust, heightened awareness, freedom, joy, possibility, feeling the horses heart beat and breath and then your own. It’s like in avatar when they connect braids and become one. That connection makes me feel connected to the universe and the energy of life. Too good to try to describe here but if you’ve had that connection with a horse you get it. Also, dogs are cool. My dog Sundance, who was my best friend for 10 years, was the best dog of all time. Total adventure bud and an angel on earth. Now I have two kittens and they are pretty fun to watch. I love their little animal instincts to stalk and hunt and climb but mostly I love that they both sleep on my back at night an purr and knead like a little miniature Swedish massage. Too cute. Animals in Africa are pretty dope too. I’ve never met an animal I don’t like (except maybe this one opossum who constantly tries to eat my quails. Real jerk move if you ask me). But other than that, animals are pretty chill. Be nice to animals. K. thx bye for today! Be kind and do what you love! ❤
Day 1 (again)…I didn’t complete the 40 days so here we go again from the top…
I am grateful for new beginnings. Spring is such a great reminder of how beautiful growth can be. Everything appear dead and lifeless in fall and winter but in SPRING? holy cannoli! How crisp and new the world looks covered in the baby blades of grass and cherry blossoms blooming all around. Every darn day is.a new beginning and a chance to do things a tiny bit better than the day before. To make the world around us more beautiful and like an eternal spring in our own lives and homes. Whatever brings you joy like seeing a pink cherry blossom tree in bloom, surround yourself with that, whatever doesn’t ‘spark joy’, well thank it for it’s service and send it on its way. Literally or metaphorically plant things you love, nature them and watch them bloom. Have you ever seen the cherry blossoms in spring Washington DC? (heart eyes emoji). Anyway, I hope you get to set your little peepers on lots of things that make you stand in absolute awe this spring.